i'm so sorry that always made u worried.....
unhappy....
angry.....
sad.....
beh siok....
especially beh siok....
u r saying that i'm always made u beh siok....
actually i also duno y i will always do that...
i'm so sorry.... T_T
i duno wat can i do
i duno wat should i do also
the thing i knw hw to do
juz say
SORRY
to u only...
i'm so sorry...
i knw that u r dislike about this...
but i really duno wat can i do on it...
i also duno y i will made u beh siok also...
mayb that's my pattern....
SORRY~
T_T
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
♥ new life ♥
dear diary.....
i'm so long time din updated it....
y i din updated it ????
issit there was nothing unhappy or sad thing happen around me ???
i thinks so...
coz recently...actually i'm quite comfortable with my new life...
i was start my new study life at SEGI college....
i had study at there going to one month...
until nw...all my worries were gone....
gone...
the main issue that i worry before i study at segi was gone totally...
GONE.....
^^
i had made some new friends at there....
the friends were friendly n din selfish at all.....
they are friendly...kind.....funny....
n even 38.... XP
actually i'm so happy that i can study with him in a same location....
N we are in different class....haha....
it's good for me n him.....
i think....
me n him.... ♥♥
i really love u....
actually i'm always think tat...
my wish can be truth ???
although the wish will always laugh by others...
disagree and even not much can do that...
but i really hope that i can made it....
wish....
wish...
i hope that u will b my first and last bf...
hope that my wish can be truth....
u really treat me so good...
so sayang me....
so care me.....
so worried about me....
care about everything of me....
thanks....
appreciate....
really thanks you...
i'm so long time din updated it....
y i din updated it ????
issit there was nothing unhappy or sad thing happen around me ???
i thinks so...
coz recently...actually i'm quite comfortable with my new life...
i was start my new study life at SEGI college....
i had study at there going to one month...
until nw...all my worries were gone....
gone...
the main issue that i worry before i study at segi was gone totally...
GONE.....
^^
i had made some new friends at there....
the friends were friendly n din selfish at all.....
they are friendly...kind.....funny....
n even 38.... XP
actually i'm so happy that i can study with him in a same location....
N we are in different class....haha....
it's good for me n him.....
i think....
me n him.... ♥♥
i really love u....
actually i'm always think tat...
my wish can be truth ???
although the wish will always laugh by others...
disagree and even not much can do that...
but i really hope that i can made it....
wish....
wish...
i hope that u will b my first and last bf...
hope that my wish can be truth....
u really treat me so good...
so sayang me....
so care me.....
so worried about me....
care about everything of me....
thanks....
appreciate....
really thanks you...
Saturday, March 5, 2011
ACT
acting~~
i'm acting only~
i'm always acting only....
i like.....not.....i should say i'm usual.....
act in front of my friends....
ACT.....
actually i'm not strong at all.....
actually i'm very stress.....
actually i always thinks about something that others wont think.....
in front of friends.....
i'm a relax and easygoing person.....
i'm a girl who always happy.....always laugh......always din hav any worries.....
actually i'm not.....
i'm not but i hope i am.....
i'm so sorry tat i act in front of u all.....
SORRY~
nw....i feel tat.....i'm super stress.....
stress until i wish to kill myself..... T_T
i'm acting only~
i'm always acting only....
i like.....not.....i should say i'm usual.....
act in front of my friends....
ACT.....
actually i'm not strong at all.....
actually i'm very stress.....
actually i always thinks about something that others wont think.....
in front of friends.....
i'm a relax and easygoing person.....
i'm a girl who always happy.....always laugh......always din hav any worries.....
actually i'm not.....
i'm not but i hope i am.....
i'm so sorry tat i act in front of u all.....
SORRY~
nw....i feel tat.....i'm super stress.....
stress until i wish to kill myself..... T_T
Friday, March 4, 2011
stress
dear diary....
long time din updated alr....
recently...am i good or bad ??
i also duno....
recently....i really feel stress with all my assignments...
mid term..... relationship between friends and friends
wat should i do on tat ???
i really duno wat r u thinking about ???
ur mood ....suddenly can be so good....suddenly can be so bad....
am i done anything wrong ???
if i got done anything wrong....please and juz tell me...
i really cant tahan tat....
suddenly black face to me.....
wat the such face?????
really duno wat reaction should i give u....
i really dunno....
wat can i do ???
sometimes really feel suffer on it.....
suffer.....
assignment n mid term are killing me....
U.....
u also killing me.....
y ??
y ??
wat i had done wrong ???
T_T
long time din updated alr....
recently...am i good or bad ??
i also duno....
recently....i really feel stress with all my assignments...
mid term..... relationship between friends and friends
wat should i do on tat ???
i really duno wat r u thinking about ???
ur mood ....suddenly can be so good....suddenly can be so bad....
am i done anything wrong ???
if i got done anything wrong....please and juz tell me...
i really cant tahan tat....
suddenly black face to me.....
wat the such face?????
really duno wat reaction should i give u....
i really dunno....
wat can i do ???
sometimes really feel suffer on it.....
suffer.....
assignment n mid term are killing me....
U.....
u also killing me.....
y ??
y ??
wat i had done wrong ???
T_T
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
pA!N
dear diary~
recently i'm so pain....
pain pain pain n pain only...
wat had happen to me ???
why will become like tat ???
actually sometime will feel curious on
whether i'm din hav time to eat or
i'm not willing to eat ??
which one am i ??
not willing to eat.... haha....
this problem will appear also....
really dunno wat am i thinking....
last time.... i will ask ppl to eat on time....if not....not good for health....
but nw....i'm like tat.... i think i got abit more serious than them....
PAIN....just the word i can said....
regret....regret.....although regret....but everything cant be change anymore....
CANT....
it's like tat since the 1st day.....it also will be the same until the end ????
i should give up on it....
it's impossible will happen...
should not dream again...dream is not good...
dreaming......dreaming....and dreaming....
it's impossible.....so i must be alert on it....
GIVE UP
is the word i can said.....
GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....
GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....
GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....
GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....
i need to give up....dont think at it anymore....
dont think don think......
change change change....
i wish to change.....
recently i'm so pain....
pain pain pain n pain only...
wat had happen to me ???
why will become like tat ???
actually sometime will feel curious on
whether i'm din hav time to eat or
i'm not willing to eat ??
which one am i ??
not willing to eat.... haha....
this problem will appear also....
really dunno wat am i thinking....
last time.... i will ask ppl to eat on time....if not....not good for health....
but nw....i'm like tat.... i think i got abit more serious than them....
PAIN....just the word i can said....
regret....regret.....although regret....but everything cant be change anymore....
CANT....
it's like tat since the 1st day.....it also will be the same until the end ????
i should give up on it....
it's impossible will happen...
should not dream again...dream is not good...
dreaming......dreaming....and dreaming....
it's impossible.....so i must be alert on it....
GIVE UP
is the word i can said.....
GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....
GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....
GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....
GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....
i need to give up....dont think at it anymore....
dont think don think......
change change change....
i wish to change.....
Monday, January 17, 2011
!t's t!mE
today, it's time to school....
the first day of eco-friendly event....
i need to duty alone....
dunno wat is going on....
dunno the event need to do wat at all....
dunno the game flow....
hw was the prize will giving out....
everything also dunno only.... dunno hw to duty also....
i think i juz knw one thing only....
that is....
i need to duty alone and i need to duty for longer time than others....
y ?????
y ?????
who can tell me why ???
am i doing something wrong that need to have such kind of punish~
duty alone without any relevant knowledge is very hard...
very blur....
and will be very FISH.....
haiz~~
dunno hw to face it also...
but need to face it too....
hope this week can gone faster....
faster faster gone....
the first day of eco-friendly event....
i need to duty alone....
dunno wat is going on....
dunno the event need to do wat at all....
dunno the game flow....
hw was the prize will giving out....
everything also dunno only.... dunno hw to duty also....
i think i juz knw one thing only....
that is....
i need to duty alone and i need to duty for longer time than others....
y ?????
y ?????
who can tell me why ???
am i doing something wrong that need to have such kind of punish~
duty alone without any relevant knowledge is very hard...
very blur....
and will be very FISH.....
haiz~~
dunno hw to face it also...
but need to face it too....
hope this week can gone faster....
faster faster gone....
Friday, January 14, 2011
~s0RRY tHAT ! L0ved y0U~
For all of the time that i tried for your smile
For making you think that i was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight
And I'm So sorry for
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when i fled the scene
sorry love for wasting your time
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
I'm so sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight
And apology now after all of this time
Won't make my difference tonight
But I'm hoping I'm Sorry will open your mind
To love love love love in your life
Sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry do can't turn back time
I'm sorry that i loved you
I'm sorry that i hurt you
I'm so sorry that i loved you
I'm sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i loved you
For making you think that i was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight
And I'm So sorry for
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when i fled the scene
sorry love for wasting your time
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
I'm so sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight
And apology now after all of this time
Won't make my difference tonight
But I'm hoping I'm Sorry will open your mind
To love love love love in your life
Sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry do can't turn back time
I'm sorry that i loved you
I'm sorry that i hurt you
I'm so sorry that i loved you
I'm sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i loved you
>< d!SAPP0!NTED
dear diary...
today i'm so disappointed...
disappointed and hopeless....
is the words i feel today...
i said to myself.....
i wont trust u anymore....
i wont trust ppl easily anymore....
am i so easy to cheat by ppl ???
am i look so stupid??
am i look seem like easily to cheat ??
i'm not dunno....
i'm not stupid at all....
maybe i'm bluntness....
but i knw wat is happening....
i knw u r cheating me....i just din say it out only....
i din say it out doesnt means that i dunno....
today i'm so disappointed...
disappointed and hopeless....
is the words i feel today...
i said to myself.....
i wont trust u anymore....
i wont trust ppl easily anymore....
am i so easy to cheat by ppl ???
am i look so stupid??
am i look seem like easily to cheat ??
i'm not dunno....
i'm not stupid at all....
maybe i'm bluntness....
but i knw wat is happening....
i knw u r cheating me....i just din say it out only....
i din say it out doesnt means that i dunno....
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
s!eN
dear diary....
today i tell myself again....
today i should be different....
i had to be change~
i had to change to be silent~
i will smile and it will be believable~
i will laugh when my friend talk to me.....
i hope my laugh n smile can tell others that :'' i'm ok...''
i hope to start my new life....
be someone new....
i hope today i had done it well...
but actually...
today when i'm laugh....
i'm not really laugh from my heart....
just acting only...hope that was no one realize...
no one realize....
sometime feel that... acting as that...
it's so tired...but wat can i do ??
be myself ??
where am i go ??
i had lost my way.... i'm lost....
i cant find back myself....
where am i ??
who am i ??
i always hope that.... i can be myself back...
the one who always happy and bring happiness to others...
the one who always smile from heart....
laugh when she is happy....
say anything that in her mind only...
play whenever she love only...
always kidding....always ''ki siao'' only...
the one who din hav any big worries....
today~
today i'm look like an outsider only...
just sit at there...like a maid only....
keeping do do do ...
do wat she said only....
scold by her.... also cant say anything...
tell her anything.... seem like all she r right...i'm fault...
chairman ???
chairman no need to do anythings ??
chairman is boss...just ordering ppl to work only...
secretary is maid...just keeping do do do work work work only...
i'm a maid....
today i tell myself again....
today i should be different....
i had to be change~
i had to change to be silent~
i will smile and it will be believable~
i will laugh when my friend talk to me.....
i hope my laugh n smile can tell others that :'' i'm ok...''
i hope to start my new life....
be someone new....
i hope today i had done it well...
but actually...
today when i'm laugh....
i'm not really laugh from my heart....
just acting only...hope that was no one realize...
no one realize....
sometime feel that... acting as that...
it's so tired...but wat can i do ??
be myself ??
where am i go ??
i had lost my way.... i'm lost....
i cant find back myself....
where am i ??
who am i ??
i always hope that.... i can be myself back...
the one who always happy and bring happiness to others...
the one who always smile from heart....
laugh when she is happy....
say anything that in her mind only...
play whenever she love only...
always kidding....always ''ki siao'' only...
the one who din hav any big worries....
today~
today i'm look like an outsider only...
just sit at there...like a maid only....
keeping do do do ...
do wat she said only....
scold by her.... also cant say anything...
tell her anything.... seem like all she r right...i'm fault...
chairman ???
chairman no need to do anythings ??
chairman is boss...just ordering ppl to work only...
secretary is maid...just keeping do do do work work work only...
i'm a maid....
Monday, January 10, 2011
c0nFuSeD
dear diary...
today should be different....
i had to be change~
i will smile and it will be believable~
my smile was just say :'' i'm fine...thank you''
''yes...i'm feel much more better...''
i will no longer be the sad little girl who lost my smile....
i will start my new life....
be someone new....
it's the only way i'll make it through....
recently.....
i'm feel very confuse....
everything also feel confused...
am i too sensitive...
i think in some area.... i'm too sensitive on it....
i think i'm think too much in that category alr...
coz tat's was impossible to happen...
in another category....
wat should i do ??
wat reaction should i give ???
who can tell me wat should i do ??
say really...
i really feel very happy coz this had happen...
but it's happen too suddenly...
too suddenly....suddenly until i'm so confused...
today...
nothing special had happen....just only my mood....
still Em0ing~~
today should be different....
i had to be change~
i will smile and it will be believable~
my smile was just say :'' i'm fine...thank you''
''yes...i'm feel much more better...''
i will no longer be the sad little girl who lost my smile....
i will start my new life....
be someone new....
it's the only way i'll make it through....
recently.....
i'm feel very confuse....
everything also feel confused...
am i too sensitive...
i think in some area.... i'm too sensitive on it....
i think i'm think too much in that category alr...
coz tat's was impossible to happen...
in another category....
wat should i do ??
wat reaction should i give ???
who can tell me wat should i do ??
say really...
i really feel very happy coz this had happen...
but it's happen too suddenly...
too suddenly....suddenly until i'm so confused...
today...
nothing special had happen....just only my mood....
still Em0ing~~
Saturday, January 8, 2011
aNGRY + SaD
i'm so angry angry angry nw....
suddenly found tat... angry also will be sad....
wat the chairman is tat....
secretary need to do so many things ??
need to do every person de work ??
then wat did other ppl need to do ??
no need to do ?? all just done by secretary ??
who can tell me.... issit the work of secretary is more than chairman ??
ISSIT ?? REALLY ??
wat also need to do by secretary...
wat had u said before n nw are totally 180 degree different...
u had cheat me.... cheat me...
i wont believe u anymore....WONT...
u r not a responsible chairman.... u r NOT....
everything also din done well therefore u din hav any qualification to say others that they din done the work well... coz they gt done their work although there are contain errors.... but at least better than u....
ish~~
suddenly found tat... angry also will be sad....
wat the chairman is tat....
secretary need to do so many things ??
need to do every person de work ??
then wat did other ppl need to do ??
no need to do ?? all just done by secretary ??
who can tell me.... issit the work of secretary is more than chairman ??
ISSIT ?? REALLY ??
wat also need to do by secretary...
wat had u said before n nw are totally 180 degree different...
u had cheat me.... cheat me...
i wont believe u anymore....WONT...
u r not a responsible chairman.... u r NOT....
everything also din done well therefore u din hav any qualification to say others that they din done the work well... coz they gt done their work although there are contain errors.... but at least better than u....
ish~~
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