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dear diary~
recently i'm so pain....
pain pain pain n pain only...
wat had happen to me ???
why will become like tat ???
actually sometime will feel curious on
whether i'm din hav time to eat or
i'm not willing to eat ??
which one am i ??
not willing to eat.... haha....
this problem will appear also....
really dunno wat am i thinking....
last time.... i will ask ppl to eat on time....if not....not good for health....
but nw....i'm like tat.... i think i got abit more serious than them....
PAIN....just the word i can said....
regret....regret.....although regret....but everything cant be change anymore....
CANT....

it's like tat since the 1st day.....it also will be the same until the end ????
i should give up on it....
it's impossible will happen...
should not dream again...dream is not good...
dreaming......dreaming....and dreaming....
it's impossible.....so i must be alert on it....
GIVE UP
is the word i can said.....
GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....
GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....
GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....
GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....GIVE UP.....
i need to give up....dont think at it anymore....
dont think don think......
change change change....
i wish to change.....