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dear diary....
today i tell myself again....
today i should be different....
i had to be change~
i had to change to be silent~
i will smile and it will be believable~
i will laugh when my friend talk to me.....
i hope my laugh n smile can tell others that :'' i'm ok...''
i hope to start my new life....
be someone new....
i hope today i had done it well...
but actually...
today when i'm laugh....
i'm not really laugh from my heart....
just acting only...hope that was no one realize...
no one realize....
sometime feel that... acting as that...
it's so tired...but wat can i do ??
be myself ??
where am i go ??
i had lost my way.... i'm lost....
i cant find back myself....
where am i ??
who am i ??
i always hope that.... i can be myself back...
the one who always happy and bring happiness to others...
the one who always smile from heart....
laugh when she is happy....
say anything that in her mind only...
play whenever she love only...
always kidding....always ''ki siao'' only...
the one who din hav any big worries....
today~
today i'm look like an outsider only...
just sit at there...like a maid only....
keeping do do do ...
do wat she said only....
scold by her.... also cant say anything...
tell her anything.... seem like all she r right...i'm fault...
chairman ???
chairman no need to do anythings ??
chairman is boss...just ordering ppl to work only...
secretary is maid...just keeping do do do work work work only...
i'm a maid....